Have some evening selfies.
Today has been horrid, but I feel fly tonight~
My name is Jean. I’m beautiful, and that was a very tough realization to come to. My whole life I’ve been.. “odd”. I was always the fat girl who was chosen last in gym class. I was the troubled teenager who would cut herself and attempt to justify my injuries to everyone who asked. When I lost my virginity at 15-years old, I did it because I figured I’d never have the chance to have sex again in my life. That’s how fat and ugly I believed I was.
I hated myself for such a long time, and I guess there’s a part of me that still does. However, the love that I’ve developed for my entire being is beginning to outweigh every ounce of my negativity.
The bottom pictures are of my burns. They’re either second or third degree; I’m not sure, as the severity, visually changes and is difficult to identify. A few days ago, I decided that the only way to relieve my emotional pain was to dig lit cigarettes into my arms (other arm is not shown).
Now, maybe you’re wondering why I’m saying any of this, or why I’m posting these pictures. I’m doing it because the idea of being able to convince at least one person to not self-harm is more than worth it. If even one person sees this and decides not to throw up their dinner, I will have succeeded.
I love every single one of you. To the girls and boys suffering with depression, anxiety, or any other ailments from the laundry list that is mental disorders, I love you. I love you so much that I’d give my life for your happiness right now. If anyone sees this and feels they can relate to me at all, contact me. Not only am I here for you, but I am yours. United we will heal.
With love, Jean
A very special #mcm post for the best friends I’ve ever had. Soba was one of the main reasons I made it through the loss of Chris. He’s so special to me, and Haku has fit into the family just fine. These boys are my life. #rats #cute